Lost.....

Hey peps,

Turns out that nobody read my blog. Hahaha, doesn't matter though.
i just wanted to pour my problems and happenings somewhere and blog is the solution.
People don't read it though, but i don't really have someone who would really listen to me.

Also i had messengers and lots of contacts but none of them call or even chat with me.
I thought that maybe i should be the one who call them first, but they seems to be not interested in talking with me . It 's like i had to do icebreaking session with them everytime and yet it never worked.

What am i supposed to do?!!Hold everything within myself and let it be rusty . Well i don't want that to happen . it'll only cause my personality to change. Don't you think so?!!That's why friends exist .What happen to the aphorism " Friends are always there to help you." ?!!Is it only a lie to those who really need them.
Honestly my friends nowadays are seniors in my school, is this the problem?Are they too mature to listen to a 16 years old boy talking?!Gimme a chance.....

What the hell happen here?!!!!I'm really lost without sharing my problems with friends.
Even my phone doesn't ring at all .
Once i have this thought, to get a girlfriend. It doesn't seems to work on me,a 16 years old boy,bad-looking,non-optimist person. To have a girlfriend beside you,even to think of it , it just makes me feel peace and warm. Your girlfriend nagging around you . Well this thought is just simply a fantasy of mine that happens to be not true .

Peps!!!Help me!!!!Did i take this matter too seriously?!argh!!!!! I'm completely lost .
I'm still keeping this matter to myself ,only you who read my posting know this.