Lonely....

Today is a rainy day. it's been raining since morning....
well, now i'm at my school library,sitting in front one of library's PC.There are only me, the librarian and a student.maybe because it's saturday, students here won't come on weekends.
actually i intend to study for my test on the 25th august. But i can't concentrate at all.

It's freezing inside the school...it's like snowing....even wearing a jacket still makes me feel freezing.

i don't mind my body to be freezed ,it's my soul that must be warm...feel so lonely deep inside.....i want somebody to be beside me ....nagging around....i just don't know who she is,where she is,what she is doing now,how is she doing.....

I admitted that i maybe too young to have a girlfriend, but i think it is the essential thing that i need right now.I need somebody to share with, who loves me. i am also not the type of the men which women want .

i hope i can meet u soon.....
Au revoir

Don't go further.....

Folks!!! Back again hahaha....

This time, is about date.
Well, i had this thought every time when i wanted step further in relationship with my girl friends.

This thought cross my mind. If i go further, and got rejected, what will happen to our friendship which is bond tightly. A question seems to be causing A lost of a friend. A friend who has thought you as only a friend and trusted you to be different from other guys.

I can't go more further. Though maybe later on , i have to step on.....
Fortunately, this girl was just fine for me,she is older than i am, more matured than i am , who don't want this girl?!Moreover she's cute,she's so my type.
I wanted to try to ask her out but i'm afraid that it will end our friendship,so i' d better not.
Maybe things should just be the way it is for now.

"Play safe" phrase kept popped out of my mind.It's like I am sitting on the fence.

Others guys will mock me saying i'm a coward a.k.a loser. Well i don't care guys, you guys just don't understand!!!

Well peeps, any suggestion on this matter?!!!!

N.I.C.E

Hey!!!

I' m back folks, how are you?!!
Oh well, here i am again. Just want to share my life . This week was an astonishing week. A lot of things happen....

Last Sunday was a great day, Me and my Student Club folks went to our School's BBQ, mostly Staffs attended, but it was great , we have lotsa fun....sing, BBQing , play with the lecturers .
Here's one of the photos.

HAha...Wish we can do this thing often.

on Wednesday, i got my new hair style .....totally cool , i love it!!!!
Got this new haircut because i had an interview on the next day.

Thursday was the day i awaited, the day which is my interview for Student Ambassador and Student Club meeting. I hope that i amused the comittee, actually i was nominated by the school staff. So proud, wish me luck folks, the results are coming out on 21st.

Finalists are going to be invited to the Annual Dinner and Dance ; And will receive letter of commendation.
The best part is ,winner will receive scholarship , free air ticket, can work for the school and receive commission. HEY!WHY not?!!!!!

Enough bout the Student Ambassador thing...hahha the Student club meeting was to plan out the body of event name "TMC Idol 2008" . We have finally come to the main event for the year. 29th august will be the audition, so we'll have to plan everything ASAP.

Think this is the end for this posting.
see ya on the next one folks.

Au Revoir

Lost.....

Hey peps,

Turns out that nobody read my blog. Hahaha, doesn't matter though.
i just wanted to pour my problems and happenings somewhere and blog is the solution.
People don't read it though, but i don't really have someone who would really listen to me.

Also i had messengers and lots of contacts but none of them call or even chat with me.
I thought that maybe i should be the one who call them first, but they seems to be not interested in talking with me . It 's like i had to do icebreaking session with them everytime and yet it never worked.

What am i supposed to do?!!Hold everything within myself and let it be rusty . Well i don't want that to happen . it'll only cause my personality to change. Don't you think so?!!That's why friends exist .What happen to the aphorism " Friends are always there to help you." ?!!Is it only a lie to those who really need them.
Honestly my friends nowadays are seniors in my school, is this the problem?Are they too mature to listen to a 16 years old boy talking?!Gimme a chance.....

What the hell happen here?!!!!I'm really lost without sharing my problems with friends.
Even my phone doesn't ring at all .
Once i have this thought, to get a girlfriend. It doesn't seems to work on me,a 16 years old boy,bad-looking,non-optimist person. To have a girlfriend beside you,even to think of it , it just makes me feel peace and warm. Your girlfriend nagging around you . Well this thought is just simply a fantasy of mine that happens to be not true .

Peps!!!Help me!!!!Did i take this matter too seriously?!argh!!!!! I'm completely lost .
I'm still keeping this matter to myself ,only you who read my posting know this.

BEIJING OLYMPICS 2008!!!

YAY!! Olympics begin!!!

8th august 2008, 08:08 pm


GO Indonesia!!!!!!WIn medals!!!Not bombing wahahaha!
GUd luck!!!

ABCE Results

Hi guys.....

Tell you what, I'm disappointed with my results for my 2nd term exam.
my Results are :
English C6
E.maths B3
Physics C5
Accounting A2
A.maths E8
Malay C6

wew....Gotta work harder....73 days to go before my O exam come.
Hope i'm well prepared....

Wish me luck peps!!!

Thata

Any Idea?!!

Well here i am again.....

Nothing much to do. Just sitting in my school library... doing nothing checking blog and browsing...
I'm still tired from playing basketball and pool last night.
Tell you what...I skip my english composition class hwahha...just get my attendance marked and get the hell outta the class.....

Yep, me and my classmates came for that class only to get attendance. Haahaha, the teacher is also lenient. Therefore sometimes i attended her class. But today was a chill day.

I have no class in the afternoon, because it's my award ceremony today which means i get to see my results for my 2nd term . So excited !!!!!!But don't hope much , i failed my A. Mathematics .
But i was told that i am the only one who pass English .That means i get an award!!But only for English subject hahahhaha...